No, not THAT big day. I’m already married (to the love of my life)! The other big day is now here. You know, the one where I FINALLY have a blog. It’s been a long time coming. I’ve been interested in photography for a long time, but truly started pursuing it last year. I’m the continual “learner” and thus kept taking classes, reading books, and hanging out with people who actually knew what they were doing. In these endeavors, I was continually hoping for the moment that I would suddenly feel knowledgeable and credible. It is almost as if I was waiting for the “ah hah!” moment where suddenly everything would come together and I’d know everything there is to know about everything (I’m an all or nothing sort of person, can you tell?).
This process has been extremely difficult for me too because I am such an avid learner. You know how people have right and left brains? Well I’m straight 50/50 in that. Nope, no 60/40, no 70/30. I wish I was, as it would make this pursuit of photography SO much easier. I’m so logical and so creative at the same time, but in order to BE creative, I must also FEEL confident in my knowledge of the subject. That made it really hard to release myself creatively speaking. It’s like I micromanaged every creative process by overthinking the steps to get there (I can thank my parents, because my dad is the straight business dude, and my mom is the artsy, creative one).
Through the process I’ve been left behind as friends around me jump in head first. It was hard and frustrating to see myself be so pensive and self conscious and lose out on probably limitless opportunities. But, looking back now…I wouldn’t change ANYTHING. Yeah, I should’ve had a blog a year ago. But, it would’ve been a blog that wasn’t ME. In this process of learning, I also did some soul searching and figured out what I REALLY love, who I am as a person and as a photographer, and tried to start prioritizing my life and time. I also grew as a photographer. A year ago I was setting my camera to basically “auto” and hoping to get a good shot. I now shoot fully manual and know how to create the shots I want (still learning, but much more in control of what I do with a camera)! In the mean time we also moved to San Diego County, started new careers, bought a house, and got an adorable puppy. I’ve really enjoyed this time of growth, change, inspiration, and most of all..loving on the people (and dog) that I can’t get enough of.
I want this blog to not only chronicle my photographic journey, but also my life. So, hopefully you are comfortable with personal anecdotes thrown in every once in awhile (or often!). Because, I’m me and I’m cool with that. Even if it took me a year to realize it.
Here’s a sneak peek of what’s to come:
. love you katie!
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